Miss

I miss the days we wrote journal to each other. I check your blog everyday but still no new post.

kinda lonely though...

hmm...

2017

dear Chris,

I am very happy to have you. I rarely do countdown with anyone. I always wanted to stay home, watching series during new year countdown because I was single. 2016 was a tough year for me, I was very depressed, miserable, fragile & exhausted.

the best thing happened in 2016 was you.

I was so looking forward to countdown together with you. you made me feel excited about it. & I was really anticipated to spend that moment with you.

last night when you wanted to send me home, I felt very disappointed, angry & sad. you almost broke your promise, broke my heart again. I almost wanted to cry.

but I'm glad that eventually you & I get to be together at that precious moment. don't always make your own judgement & decision. please listen to my voice, & understand what I say & what I want.

luckily we make it through. I'm happy. I'm blissful. I wish we could do it always in future.

I hope that 2017 will be a better year for you, for me, & also for us. I will learn to love you better. I also hope that you can do so.

my love. I'm sorry that you are tired. hope you can rest well. please cheer up.

happy new year!