爱心 Paper Hearts

我是一个很复古的人。
我喜欢古典的东西。
我喜欢传统的文化。
我喜欢写诗、写文字。
我喜欢亲手做东西给喜欢的人。

我一直很希望可以收到我喜欢的人亲自做的礼物。
卡片也好。
玫瑰花也好。
折简单的爱心也好。

亲爱的，我们好不容易可以走到100天。
我真的很开心。
我从来没有想过跟一个人在一起那么久。
因为我每一次喜欢人，从来没有奢望过可以跟对方在一起，更没有奢望过可以跟对方在一起超过100天。
因为我的喜欢总是那么浅，那么淡，那么短暂，那么经不起考验。

我们可以在一起100天，对我来说，一点都不容易。
因为我是有恋爱恐惧症的女生。
我很害怕爱上人。
我很害怕被爱。
我很害怕谈恋爱。
因为我很害怕分手。

亲爱的，请原谅我无理的要求。
请原谅我的任性。
请原谅我的情绪化。

我是真的，真的，真的很想要收到你折的100个爱心。
每一天，一个爱心，代表你爱我的一颗心。
我很期待我们的100天。
因为那对我来说是那么地奇迹。

这100天里，你让我很幸福，却也让我很痛苦过。
无数次，我想要转身离开，我不想要继续了，因为谈恋爱对我来说真的是太困难了。

我是那么崇尚自由的人。
我是那么热爱独处的人。
可是你，让我愿意牺牲自由，愿意与你为伴。
我改变了很多。
是你所不知道的，因为你并没有见过从前的我。
从前的我像一只刺猬一样，没有人靠近得了我。

亲爱的，请你了解我的心。
请你懂得我爱人的方式。
也请你学习懂得如何爱我，好吗。

100个爱心，象征着我们爱情的开始。
也象征着我克服了爱情恐惧症。
请你包容我的神经敏感，还有小女生的浪漫细胞。

你所做的玫瑰花，我很珍惜。
你所亲手写的情书，我很珍惜。
我都很珍惜。

请你也懂得珍惜我的玻璃心。

我爱你。
倒数3天。

I love classics.
I love traditional culture.
I love poems.
I love words.
I love making things for person I love.

I always wish that I could receive some precious gift which is handmade by the person I love and loves me back.
Even a simple card.
Even a paper rose.
Even just a simple paper heart.

My Dear, it's not easy for us to survive 100 days.
I'm really very happy.
Before this, I have never thought of being together with someone for this long.
It's because every time I liked someone, I never wished to be together with someone, and of course never hoped to get together with someone for more than 100 days.
It's because the way I liked someone was always very light, very shallow, very short, very fragile.

You and I could get together for 100 days, to me, it's really very difficult, you know.
Because I have love phobia.
I'm afraid of loving someone.
I'm afraid of being loved.
I'm afraid to falling in love with someone.
Because I'm so so so afraid of breaking up with someone.

My Dear, please forgive me for my ridiculous request.
Please forgive me for being so stubborn.
Please forgive me for being so emotional.

I really, really, really wish to receive the 100 paper hearts that folded by you.
You will be the only one that could do this for me.
Every day, one paper heart, represent your heart in loving me.
I'm looking forward to our 100th day.
Because to me, it is such a big and unbelievable miracle.

In these 100 days, you made me feel blissful, but also made me feel suffered.
Many times, I thought of running away from this relationship, I admit that I'm a coward, I thought of ending this whole thing, because to me, falling in love with someone is really very tough for me.

I love freedom.
I love being alone.
But for you, I sacrificed my freedom, to spend time with you.
It's not easy for me to video call someone in mornings and nights.
It's not easy for me to report my daily routine to someone.
It's not easy for me to spend my whole day with someone without having private time myself.
It's not easy for me to make girlish stuff when dating, and when not dating.
It's very tough for me.
I changed a lot, which you didn't even notice, because you have never seen the person I was.
I was like a porcupine that nobody could ever able to approach me.

My Dear, please understand my heart.
Please understand the way I love you.
And please learn the way to love me,
Please?

To me, 100 paper hearts represent the beginning of our love journey.
More significantly, it also symbolizes that I have finally overcome my love phobia.
Please be patient with my sensitivity, and my little girl's fantasy romance.

The roses you made for me, I love them and appreciate them
The love you handwritten for me, I love it and appreciate it.
I appreciate everything that you handmade  for me.

My love, please too appreciate my heart that is as fragile as glass.

I love you.

Countdown 3 days.